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A Tale of the Sea and Me: A Sad Event
This sea story was published as a column in The Lebanon (Tennessee) Democrat, one of those i wrote weekly for that newspaper under the heading “Notes from the Southwest Corner” for ten years. Published in 2008, i believe it best captures my feelings about the end of the Vietnamese “conflict.” i have only made small edits even though much of this is repeats from recent posts.
SAN DIEGO – In 1975, I witnessed international history.
Having been on destroyers since commissioning in 1968, I was transferred to the U.S.S. Anchorage (LSD-36) from the U.S.S. Hollister (DD 788). It was my first experience with the amphibious Navy. The First Lieutenant, my new position, was directly involved with every aspect of the ship’s primary mission, i.e. putting troops, vehicles, and cargo ashore.
I was a novice and one month away from a seven-month deployment to the Western Pacific. My delicate position was exacerbated by the cruel twist of the manning czars in Washington, D.C. I had one experienced junior officer; and one chief boatswains mate, who had been a boxer most of his Navy time. The ship’s complement called for two experienced junior officers, one boatswain warrant officer, three chief boatswain mates, and three first class boatswain mates.
To say the least, I was learning on the job with long days and midnight oil. This did not include moving my family to San Diego and subsequently preparing them to go to Texas while I was deployed.
During the move from San Pedro to San Diego, my parents called to tell me my beloved Uncle Snooks, Alvin Hall, had died suddenly from a heart attack. Uncle Snooks and my aunt, Bettye Kate Hall, had been more like second parents than aunt and uncle.
So I was dealing with a personal loss in the middle of the madcap preparations to deploy. As with all of my deployments, it became much easier once we “let go all lines” and steamed out of San Diego Bay, March 28, 1975.
This particular deployment has enough sea stories for a book. I will omit most for now. The Anchorage and the six other ships of the Amphibious Ready Group (ARG) proceeded to Pearl Harbor, departing after a flag briefing indicating the deployment should entail nothing unusual.
At sea five days later, the ARG received a radio message, which announced takeover of South Vietnam by the North was imminent. Six of the seven ships were directed to steam southwest and join the outgoing squadron off the coast of Vung Tau, Vietnam. The Anchorage was directed to steam to Japan, off load cargo and load the equipment of the Marine Amphibious Unit (MAU). Then, the ship was to join the task force.
There were many delays and adventures en route. Anchorage reached the rendezvous May 2. The evacuation of South Vietnam, dubbed “Frequent Wind,” essentially over but the rescue 35,000 refugees had just begun.
Because the ship was overloaded, we did not take on refugees. Our participation was limited to daily, all-day boat operations, and taking on two landing craft (LCM 8’s), which had previously been the U.S. Army’s boats.
So early each morning, I would go out on deck with my morning cup of coffee to start the day. After launching the Mike 8s, I spent most of the day at the handrails, watching the day pass in the calm seas.
I would watch Navy, Marine, and Air America helicopters make continuous landings on the four aircraft carriers, USS Okinawa (LPH-3), a helicopter carrier and our squadron flag ship, and USS Tripoli (LPH 10). An amazing number of Americans and Vietnamese escaped from Saigon via these helicopters.
Even more incredible, as first light crept into sunrise, the horizon would be filled with every type of craft, jammed with people. For three days, the deluge of humanity kept coming over that horizon until sunset faded into dusk. Before the task force weighed anchor and headed east, more than 35,000 people had been embarked.
Estimates of the total number of evacuees ranged between 70,000 and 100,000. I believe the number was higher. I cannot imagine how many didn’t make it. I don’t believe I have ever been so moved as I was standing on that deck, watching those South Vietnamese coming and coming and coming over the horizon. They were putting their families, old folks and babies, on craft I would not board on a pond, much less the South China Sea.
I don’t intend to discuss politics here. I certainly didn’t have a better answer then, and I would not have one now. Yet as I watched those people risking their lives and the lives of their families to run from their country, their home, I recall thinking, “There has to be a better way. There has to be something we could have done to let these people live in their home.”
As a shipmate eloquently recorded in the Anchorage cruise book, “It’s sad to see a country die.”
Pascal on Man
The more I see of men, the better I like my dog.
Take Me to the Open Sea
Lord, oh Lord,
take me to the open sea
where i can balance against the heel and roll
of the steel deck covered with non-skid;
let me stand on the port bridge wing
in 20 knots of wind, a mug of hot coffee
brewed long enough ago to be as thick as tar,
strong enough to eat at the enamel from my teeth,
standing the evening watch in a sky so filled with stars
i feel the insignificance of me;
let me hear the gush of of the boilers steam,
the swish of the wave knifed into
by the blade of the bow
then rolling down the waterline;
let me hold the heavy, black binoculars up,
looking for a contact hull-down on the horizon
i cannot see;
let me stand on the open bridge,
a cigarette dangling from my lip,
the drab olive green foul weather jacket collar
up, knocking the wind from my neck
as first light subtely takes the night from the sky.
Lord, oh Lord,
Take me to the open sea.
Old Man Musing on a Sunday
i arose after a good night’s sleep, a blessing for an old man. i had my usual list of chores to do around home: washing and storing clothes, washing and storing dishes, washing the patio cover. As usual, the preps and cleanup for the last chore required more time, primarily because i would return to my briar patch where tools are kept, mess around in there for a while, and return to the back patio, only to remember i forgot something.
But there was great pleasure in the outdoor work. i have picked up my walking both in frequency and distance and discovered my age-old tee shirt doesn’t cover a small strip around my neck and shoulder thereby giving me a sunburn. Well, i’m old and cheap and not going to get a high end collar to protect my exposed neck.
So, i went back home some 70+ years ago, evoking Roy Rogers, Gene Autry, Bob Steele, and others. i donned a red bandana, tying it around my neck and…Voila, covered the sunburned strip. i played cowboy while, from a ladder, washing down and scrubbing the aircraft soot off the patio cover singing “Tumbling Tumbleweeds,” “Happy Trails,” and “Cool Water.” Great Day.
Then, i, of course, napped.
After my routine nap, which has been a staple since my father and i would repair to the two sofas across from each other in our den after lunch in 65-67, i forced myself to finish the chores.
As i said, a great day.
i consider most of my days great days now. One source of my feeling good is in my home office. i have had some old family portraits for a number of years. Two came down from my father through his oldest sister Naomi. The frames are gone. i have had them wrapped trying to determine what to do with them. In my latest attempt to organize all of this stuff i have to make it easier for those i left behind, i unwrapped the two portraits.
Hiram Carpenter “Buddy” Jewell was my great grandfather. His wife, Sarah, was my great grandmother. Each morning as i go through my routine. i look at those two. The portraits are not framed. i may eventually frame them. Right now, the portraits sit next to a photo of my golfing buddies, Jim Hileman, Pete Toennies, Marty Linville, and me.
Buddy Jewell was an interesting man. At 18, he enlisted in Smith’s Tennessee 2nd Calvary in 1861 for a year and re-upped for three more years as a corporal in Smith’s Tennessee 8th Calvary, D Company while stationed in Bardstown, Kentucky. After he was paroled at the end of the war, he returned to Statesville and married Sarah. They had three sons, one dying as an infant. One of the other two was my grandfather Hiram Carpenter Jewell.
Sarah Jones Jewell was an angel. i remain awed by her caring. After they were married, they received a letter from Mary Jane Sutton. She had become pregnant from Buddy when was in Kentucky. Mary had John Jay Jewell in 1862. Family lore tells us William Carpenter Sutton married her after she became pregnant and John Jay was born after the wedding.
Regardless, the letter told Buddy and Sarah that her husband had died, and she was in poor health. She requested that John Jay come live with them. Sarah directed Buddy to go to Kentucky and bring Mary Jane and John Jay back to Statesville. He did and Sarah nursed Mary Jane until she passed away and raised John Jay as one of her own.
Now, each morning i look at those two portraits, dwelling on her. She is a powerful source of inspiration for me. i spend a minute wondering what life in Statesville, Tennessee would have been like for them. It is my quiet time before beginning my day.
Things like cleaning patio covers don’t seem so bad after that. Besides i wore my red bandana.