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  • Forty-Two

    The pastor who married us forty-one years ago just left with his wife to catch a plane back to New England. My brother Joe and his wife Carla have been here since Friday. Their daughter Kate, son-in-law Conor and children, Leo, Oona, and Niamh, came the next day. i gave the men a tour of Navy ships and we joined the women in Coronado on Sunday, and yesterday, we went to the zoo. Great fun. This old man is tired.

    So today, often filled with celebratory dinners, will be quiet, rest, reflection, and turning the house into a two person affair. That affair has be going on for longer than 41 years, but that wedding my brother performed was forty-one years ago today. We will have a quiet small dinner and an upscale one later this week.

    i won’t belabor the subject here. i will just repeat the great story i’ve told many times about how we met:

    It was early March 1982. i was the Weapons Officer of the USS Okinawa (LPH 3) home ported in San Diego. The Weapons Officer billet was titled “First Lieutenant” on other amphibious helicopter carriers. Regardless, it meant i was charge in pretty much everything not aviation, engineering, operations, or supply related.

    One of those responsibilities was being in charge of the quarterdeck where all visitors entered the ship. From previous regimes, we had a large red torah that spanned the entrance into the helicopter deck below the flight deck. It was impressive, but Captain Dave Rogers called me to his cabin one afternoon. “Jim, I want our quarterdeck to be the best quarterdeck on the base. I want it to be the most impressive and known to be the best by everyone home ported here.”

    I, of course, replied, “Aye, Aye, Sir!”

    i discussed how we could make the quarterdeck renowned  across the waterfront with my division officers and Boatswain Warrant Officer 4 (CWO4) Ellis. The Bosun had a bit of a beer gut. He was married to a wonderful Filipino woman who created a lovely macramé lanyard for the boatswain pipe the bosun gave me when i was transferred. She was about 4’8″ and almost that wide. Great lady, just a bit wide.

    My team came up with the idea of a sitting area next to the quarterdeck. At the time, when guests or visitors came aboard, they had to wait for the watch to contact whomever they were there to see. That sailor or officer would have to come to the quarterdeck to escort the visitor. Often, the time it took to get to the quarterdeck was lengthy.

    So we decided we could create a sitting area with panels, some chairs, maybe a sofa, and hang framed photographs about the Oki on the walls. That way, the visitor wouldn’t have to stand around in the working bay of the helicopter deck. Great idea.

    We had to decide where and how to get panels. Since the Bosun and his first class were going to make a supply run Friday, the next day, i asked them to check out panels while they were on their run. Liberty call was early and the Bosun and his first class left around 1300. They were dressed in their standard liberty civies. The Bosun had on Levis with a blue tee shirt with his thick black hair combed back as much as it could to resemble a ducktail. His first class had on his biker’s jeans, white tee shirt with a leather jacket and a silver chain dangling down from the jeans. He had straw blond hair also combed back and the gap of a missing tooth was the final touch. They left for their mission.

    i had a bunch of paperwork to work through and continued on after liberty call. The bosun came into the office with several boxes of toilet paper (i never understood why he didn’t get it through supply).

    “i didn’t think you would be coming back to the ship, Bosun,” i remarked.

    “Well, i didn’t want to keep this stuff at home over the weekend,” he replied.

    “Did you find any panels?”

    “Well sir, we went to Dixieline (a local lumber and home center). They didn’t have them, but they told us to go to Parron-Hall.”

    “Parron-Hall?” i puzzled.

    “Yes sir. They’re an office furniture place downtown across from the county admin building. We went there, but that place was way too classy for us. They had desks in the showroom worth more than my house.

    “You are gonna have to go down there and see about them panels.”

    Aww, come on, Bosun, i have a lot on my plate.”

    “No sir, you are gonna have to go down there. It’s on Ash Street.”

    Then he added, ” You know sir, the woman who waited on us was really pretty. i noticed she didn’t have a ring on her finger. i’m pretty sure she’s single.

    “And she’s way too skinny for me.”

    Epilogue



    Wedding Day 1983

    Midday on the next Monday, i drove down to Parron-Hall Office Materials. i asked the receptionist to see the person who had given her business card to Bosun. i stood at the entrance to the showroom. Maureen came walking across the show room with the sun shining in the window behind her (think Glenn Close in “The Natural,” only prettier). She claims i had my piss cutter on my head. That, of course, is not correct: i am a country boy from Lebanon, Tennessee raised correctly by my parents, Army ROTC at Castle Heights, a Naval career and, by the way, an officer and a gentleman. My hat was off.

    We had numerous discussions about the panels, which required about four or five “business” lunches over the five or six weeks for the panels to arrive. When the deal was done, i asked for that date to see John Lee Hooker at the Belly Up Tavern. We attended several events over the summer including sailing with JD in the “Fly a Kite” race where we became (or at least JD became) a legend. We went out to dinner too many times to count.

    Then, on July 30, 1983, we were married in her father’s backyard.

  • A View of Death Hurdled From a Fifth Floor Window

    no one heard
    his epileptic call of delight;
    later, no one would even know
    the crass and un-smiled-upon disease
    had crashed his brain
    as he leaped
    from his fifth floor room window
    with that call of delight
    but
    his mind raced onward
    into the ecstasy of madness
    as he dwindled toward oblivion
    but yet,
    not quite oblivion
    as his wish for recognition
    would also be buried
    amidst the headline of
    “Man Killed In Fall Out of Window;”
    even his name was plummeted
    into the obscurity of
    second paragraphville;
    his falling from grace, even in his delight
    from the YMCA’s fifth floor,
    past the gym of happiness
    and
    showers of cleanliness
    against the cobbler’s sign
    (which should have been symbolic
    but
    even that as coincidental)
    onto
    “the concrete of the sidewalk below”
    according to the newspaper reporter,
    but
    did little to shatter
    the stillness of early morning when
    the milkman continued to drop his bottles on the doorsteps
    and
    the bicycled paperboys thudded their paper missiles
    against the walls of the porches
    long before the sun rose
    to meet the day,
    refusing to yet relent
    to storms of winter;
    the elevator even disregarded
    the sacrifice of delight,
    carefully coasting down and up
    under the auspices of the new elevator man
    whose name no one knew
    and
    who would move into the YMCA the next day
    so he, that man whom epilepsy had possessed
    to end it all with a yell of delight
    passed on
    in his fit;
    not one soul, not even the newspaper reporter,
    acknowledged
    it was the disease of Caesar.

  • Miles’ Law

    Where you stand depends on where you sit.

  • All Is Calm

    the sun is shining outside, but it is cold;
    the sky is blue outside, but the trees are bare;
    the wind whispers softly, but its coldness bites into the skin;
    the windows reflect the sparkling sunshine, but the glare hurts the eyes.

    i walked to the top of the hill and looked down on the lights of the city,
    hoping to remember something beautiful and warm,
    but the memories brought sadness
    because they were of the past instead of the present;

    a tear came to my eye, and the wind made the tear cold.
    i was alone; the fact burned my heart as it chilled my soul;
    i watched with sad amusement as two squirrels
    in the lone tree on the hill chattered to one another;

    i walked down the hill back to my lonely room,
    four walls, bare lights, blaring radio, books, un-emptied ashtrays.

    the sun is shining outside but it is cold;
    the sky is blue outside, but the trees are bare;
    the wind whispers softly but its coldness bites into the skin;
    the windows reflect the sparkling sunshine;
    but the glare hurts the eyes,

    and all is calm

    but yet…

                                          

  • A Very Private Thing

    i stood on the old bridge,
    leaning forward against the rail,
    a tear traced its lonely way
    down my cheek;
    the wind whisked the tear away;
    the pebble i dropped into
    the deep water below
    shattered the moonlight
    into a thousand pieces of ripples;

    i remembered;
    another tear began its futile journey
    against the wind

    i remembered her:
    soft lips, soft like the moon’s shattered reflection,
    tender touch, tender as the wind carrying tears away;
    gone
    but
    she would be back;
    after all she had promised;
    everything was quiet;
    i waited.