When one has reached the precipice of really old, like 75, there are moments of regrets about what is no longer.
Today, i felt old, like something was gone. Why? It was.
Late morning, we packed the car, said goodbye to my sister and her husband, who once again have given us a beautiful Christmas, and drove our rental car to the Nashville airport to spend the night in a nearby hotel before flying back to the Southwest corner tomorrow.
It was unusual. Well, it hasn’t happened quite like this before, but it’s been four years since it’s been like it always was, or at least like it always was from 1992 through 2014. But this time, we didn’t fly out of Chattanooga or take a shuttle to Berry Field to fly out that day. No, this time we spent the night in a hotel.
Forever and forever, since i became a wanderer, my last night anytime i was in Tennessee headed back west was with my parents in Lebanon.
Old ways are gone.
Of course, that is the way life is. It moves on. Change is inevitable. People pass on. That is neither good nor bad. It’s what we make it.
Still, driving on I-24 from Chattanooga to Lebanon over those mountains and past those hills and through those valleys on a road i’ve traveled more times than i can count, not even considering our trips on US-41 before the interstate was completed, i kept thinking how i would not turn north of US-231 or north of I-840 to head home to Lebanon, but how i would keep going because that is the way it is now.
OId is gone.
It is not such a good feeling for an old man, regardless of how he reasons life is meant to be that way.
It’s okay. Next year will be a good year. Daughters, son-in-law, grandson, other relatives will do just fine. Me too.
But i miss old.
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Me too 😕
As always read and enjoy all your posts…This one really struck home for me…